Downhill

Yesterday, I almost ate an entire pizza by myself. Almost... I left one slice for the husband. You see, I love crusts. If you must know, I end up eating the edge and leaving the one with toppings. But with a very thin and crispy crust, I just couldn't stop! CPK frozen pizzas will be my demise... oh no!

In this hot weather, I can't be having pizza without an iced cold lemonade (no soda in this household unless there is a party), and ice cream. Ben and Jerry's tops my list. Classic favorite is the chunky monkey, but I had banana split yesterday by the porch while my big boy was playing with his gang and the little boy snoozing in his stroller.

Now, my tummy feels like it's been inflated! I couldn't blame this bloating to anything or anyone but myself. It's like a huge bottomless pit that can down a cow! Another scorching afternoon, I practically drank a pint of melted ice cream which I left in the kitchen table while napped with my big boy. Sometimes lactose and I aren't friends. Good thing I didn't have to run to the toilet while the big boy was being evaluated for kindergarten.

How can I reach my goals? When sometimes I couldn't help myself? I got the answer when I woke up today. I had my period. So the crazy hunger pangs was not me (if you know me, I don't eat very much unless with company hehehe!), it was my alter ego that comes to visit me once a month.

But I would like to think that I compensated all those unwanted calories by running and walking by the beach (oh well a man made beach of sort here in the reservoir near our place). The sight of a body of water excited me and almost brought me to tears! I miss home, I miss the beaches, I miss the ocean. Being in this land locked state, I will just have to settle with this -- a lake and a mediocre quality sand. Boy was it hard to trot along the sands with flip flops on and carrying a huge bag filled with goodies and whatnots for the boys. I also ran around with the big boy, but had to stop because my belly just jiggled and it hurts (I so want to chop this off! argh!)...

So the blabbing goes on but no action... it sounds pathetic. I promise to do well this coming June. I will strive to eat healthier and move a lot more! The weather is perfect to be outdoors, to sweat, and to enjoy life as I melt the pounds. (The husband plans to do an easy trek to the falls this coming Monday, I am excited!)