Down 240

The nurse called to say everything looks normal, except that my triglycerides is slightly elevated! SLIGHTLY? Oh, I was ecstatic! My triglycerides were no where near slightly elevated since two years ago!!! From 518 (two months ago), it's now at 278. The nurse said 200 below is acceptable... fine... but I still want 150 at most.

BLAH

For this past week, I've been awoken to hunger pangs! A sour stomach that hurts like hell right under my rib cage. I down it with two Tums and a glass of water, sometimes I just sleep it off. And then if I work late at night, I must and I just need to eat. But when hunger strikes at an ungodly hour, the crazy and foolish me would eat all the junk that is left in the pantry. I have been secretly eating the instant pancit canton (the husband I think doesn't notice that yet... last week he knew I stole an instant noodle cup and I got a plenty of scolding!). Oh and today, oh today... I finally had that green tea ice cream pint sitting in my freezer happily for me! I didn't finish it though but I let it melt until it's frothy almighty for me, I like ice cream that way nyehehehe!

I also want to drink a soda so badly! What is going on? After brown rice, brown bread, and brown pasta, this???!

I ordered some Vietnamese rice bowls with grilled chicken, egg rolls, and lots of fresh veggies for lunch and saved some for dinner. I am not going to cook. I am sick, I know it. I had fever yesterday. No wonder my head was throbbing the entire day. But this fever won't stop me from doing my chores, it's not that kind of fever just yet. So, I say.

The stress has taken its toll I know. Must go back to the gym, shake it off and end it with a good hot shower (mine is scalding hot, I tell ya!)...

Brown Bites

Since I started getting on this healthy lifestyle or somewhat... the husband and the little one had to share what I stock in the pantry. Brown rice takes a lot of getting used to, it's not as squishy and moist as the white one even though I put a lot of water while cooking it. The husband thinks I need to cook something really special with sauce or soup so it will make up for the grits hehe!

We also eat whole grain bread now with all those whatnots and again 'gritty' as you munch on them. It may feel like some sort of punishment hahaha! So this better work! Oh and we're eating whole grain pasta to =P

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I felt sick eating American junkie yesterday! Good thing there was a sandwich stop at the baseball stadium yesterday. Instead of having fatty burgers and fries, I had panini (I should have just had the vegetarian but since I was sharing it with the husband I had to settle the one with ham, cheese, and whatnots. But it was healthier alright, I ate a whole chunk of pickles for flavor and variety and some of its veggie crunch along with the tomato and onions. Yes, I eat the onions too!

Come dinner time, we would have wanted to have some Filipino food but the little one won because he likes Chili's chicken crispers, corn, and the blue juice! The big kids had the burger bites and soup. It was very filling but nothing compared to an almost home cooked meal Filipino style.

I wanted to vacuum the car, continue cleaning the house, and go to the gym to burn the guilt out but alas we arrived at almost nine and I had a scheduled online meeting. So never mind, will do extra work today.

Stuck

I am happy that I am stuck at 101lbs. So, perhaps around 6 pounds to go and I will be closer to where I was before. Also, the waistline is stuck at 27-28. Wish it would move to 25-26 soon!

Today, I had banana and low fat chocolate milk when I woke up. I am still waiting for my brown rice to cook and perhaps pair it w/turkey bacon and tomatoes.

Went back to the gym yesterday, 30 mins of cardio, weights, and the abdominals. But I think I need to do more now, I didn't sweat a bit!

Off Track

And so I was so inspired by that 101 lbs... I don't know if I still am, but happy because the waistline has been okay so far. This is actually making me think why it's easy to develop anorexia... I am enjoying the effects of eating relatively lesser than usual. Although I have to focus on eating the right stuffs, I am just enjoying that I get so full so easily the way I used to be. A couple spoonfuls and a few bites and I'm done. I eat frequently though, because I get hungry right away!

I haven't been going to the gym since last weekend. It's always a struggle on weekends... did a little pilates with the little one and boy he was heavy! I have to say I miss my cardio routine, it really gives me something to look forward to.

I started Metamucil, a fiber supplement which I add to my water once daily, and still continuing my fish oil supplement. I really hope this has improved my triglycerides level and increased my good cholesterol count.

So what have I been eating lately? I couldn't recall anymore but today, I slept at 10 AM! And this is what I had:

• Breakfast: cup of tea w/non fat milk and splenda
• Lunch: a slice of bacon and went back to sleep
• Snacks: one bite of chocolate coated pretzel
• Dinner: whole grain spaghetti w/tuna and shrimp tomato cream cheese sauce, iced tea, and chocolate pretzels again

Tomorrow, I promise to be better!